DILEMMA

I have one month left to finish this painting.  I am working on it on average ten to 12 hours a day and getting home at about 3 am.  I am wearing myself out.  Right now I am facing a dilemma.  I have been thinking about this painting for so long.  I feel like it is an important painting in my young career.  And I am rushing to complete it for this competition that started out as an excuse to paint it.  I don’t feel like the quality is suffering yet, but my health and well being is.  My mind has lost track of everything and anything except this painting.  I bought tickets to see one of my favorite bands, The Avett Brothers, and I completely spaced going.  The only reason I am able to spend time on this blog now, is because I am on an airplane flying in from L.A.  I came out here for the launch of issue number 9 of BlueCanvas magazine which I am featured in, and almost spaced it too!

So the dilemma is: do I sacrifice my well being and possibly the quality of the work, or do I sacrifice the possibility of winning a whole load of cash?  I keep asking myself these things, but I know what the answer is.  I am going to push through and finish it.  After all, sleep and health are over-rated anyway.  And if I finish it by mid August, or slow down and finish it when I finish it, it will still equal the same amount of hours, just spread out over a longer period of time.  I can rest when I am done.      

MARTYRS

Here is where I am with the Old Martyrs now.  I am going back over to the other wall to work on the Young Saints now.  I will go over the whole paainting again to tie up loose ends and to build up the paint.  After I finish that, I will come back to this one and do the same.  So... I am at the half way point right now, and am either two weeks behind, or one week ahead of scedule.  It's a paradox I know, but it makes sence to me and I don't think I will explain myself.

PAINT MAKES FLESH

It is so fascinating to me that from the four colors I put on my pallete, comes all the colors I use in the painting!